Heaven

by Ben Beltran

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1.
05:37
I've ben awake since six AM and it's been terrible The headaches here are friends and take away the day in phase I've been away since when the wind last took my breath away The icy hint of past nights liquefies and softly fades I've been lying to all my friends I've been lying to all your friends I've been lying all to myself And all I have to say is how it kept me safe I've been a joke since I first faced you in the shade The darkness of your tongue broke away my red-faced shame I've been lying to all my friends I've been lying to all your friends I've been lying all to myself And all I have to say is how it kept me safe I've been afloat above the waves of something biblical The shores are pink with wine and you submerged suspending time I've been at work and now the roots have taken hold of me I'd hate to move right now but it's too late if it's not done I've been lying to all my friends I've been lying to all your friends I've been lying all to myself And all I have to say is how it kept me safe
2.
03:11
I’m still wrong for you, a friend that you can’t trust You’re still a wreck of youth afraid of staying warm And you have grown to need uncertain worlds I’ll never dance for you, you’ll never let me talk While I’m a blend of yours, you’ll never know my plans Though months ago you’d know when I would float You’d notice when I’d notice when I’m gone And months ago I’d know where you would float I’d notice when I’d noticed when you glow I’m still wrong for you, we’ll never get it right I’m still a bomb to you, we’ll never get it right I’m still too soft for you, we’ll never get it right I’m still in love with you you, we’ll never get it right
3.
I’d soon have lost this well worn mood The faintest hope to say I’m cool But friends like you, Friends like you The charming tastes and warming views That I have only kept so few Are friends like you Friends like you I’m not going to solve the worries of the world I’m not going to solve the worries of the world I’m not going to solve the worries of the world What careless heights did I jump to? When did I learn to trust in clues With tricks like yours Tricks like yours And every time I feel diffuse There’s not a thing I would refuse For friends like you Friends like you I’m not going to solve the worries of the world I’m not going to solve the worries of the world I’m not going to solve the worries of the world
4.
04:48
I have a favor if you see me To stay as gentle as before I noticed right away I know you’re disappointed But I still tried to do my best I have a favor if you can That you repeat the words you said before I disappeared I hear them every day And said them at so many places But yours the only voice that cared And I don’t want you to believe in me And I won’t make you think I’ve changed And I have never been who I had said I’d be But I could really use a friend I have a question if you know What is the path where I should go There’s nothing’s really wrong And everything’s still so distasteful The road is heavy on these soles I have a need to let it go How it got in I do not know If I don’t run away it sweeps me in the wrong dimension But I don’t want to go alone And I don’t want you to believe in me And I won’t make you think I’ve changed And I have never been who I had thought I’d be But I could really use a hand Oh I could really use an exit Oh I could really use a friend And I don’t want you to believe in me And I won’t make you think I’ve changed And I have never been who you had thought I’d be But I could really use a friend
5.
04:56
The water like anticipating brids are worse Their waves shake out the dissappearing words The streets that host your holographic ghosts aren't fair The view from the fifth floor won't break the spell You cannot get away with making me wait We can't get in the way of wonder We cannot get away with setting me straight We can't get off the way of love Love me by the monsoon Love like your sun and moon Leave home for a month soon Live life a little foolish The shivers as reminders of lost time, that crime The cold in march's as foreign as your smile The brush inside the cup to say "I will be back" The keys under the door to change your mind You cannot get away from making me hope It's in your DNA to change You cannot get away with stealing my soul You can't get far enough from pain Love me by the monsoon Love like your sun and moon Leave home for a month soon Live life a little foolish Love me by the monsoon Love like your sun and moon Leave home for a month soon Live life a little foolish
6.
03:17
Like the river Who can't be climbed I can be hurtful I can be calm Like the raindrop Outside my window Entirely made up Entirely mine It makes me slow to find my confidence It makes me go out of my mind Like the branches Beyond the skyline I will be youthful I will decline Like a hermit Inside the city My words are earnest My friend is pity The reason's still the same as yesterday The rhythms still just like last year It makes me slow to find my confidence It makes me go out of my mind Like the winter I won't come back I won't come back I won't come back
7.
I don’t want to leave the house I don’t want to change my clothes I just want to lie in bed I just want the damn day off I don’t want to go to waste I don’t want to speak alone I just want to phone a friend I just want to phone a friend I don’t want to miss my ride I don’t want to miss my gate I’m all ready to take off I’m already swept away I don’t want to cover the distance I don’t want to count the days I just want to find the land I just want to find the place I’m only trying to make it alive Only trying to make it alive I’m only trying to make it alive I’m only trying to make it alive Only trying to make it alive I’m only trying to make it alive I don’t want to be a fool I don’t want to be so helpless I don’t know how to be good I don’t know how to stay restless I don’t want to stay in place I don’t want the wind to catch me I just want to start again I just want to change my name I’m only trying to make it alive Only trying to make it alive I’m only trying to make it alive I’m only trying to make it alive Only trying to make it alive I’m only trying to make it alive
8.
04:27
Heaven, you don’t have to tell me I’m already gasping, reaching for your gates Heaven, you don’t have to hide it I’m already falling straight into your arms Heaven, you just have to know it Take your time to find it, take your time to call me out Heaven, I know what you’re planning I don’t want to spoil it, I can wait it out And I’m on my way to find you out tonight I want you, I want you to fly I want you, I want you to fly And heaven, I just want to wonder, took me time to notice what you have in mind Heaven, got some time to warm up I don’t want to fight it, tell me when to fall And I’m on my way to find you out tonight I want you, I want you to fly I want you, I want you to fly

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released May 24, 2018

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Ben Beltran Guadalajara, Mexico

I once fought a wizard and won; enthusiasm enthusiast; noise emitter; low standards; displaced border crosser; amateur witch doctor; power ranger; certified cat whisperer; 98% water.

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